
I'm joining my dear friend, artist and writer Karla Dornacher, to devote this entire month as a time of gratitude and thanksgiving for all the many blessings God has bestowed upon us. Feel free to join us, on her blog or mine or with links to your own blog, because I can testify that focusing on all that you have to be grateful for will really bless you and change your heart.
Today I am so grateful for my salvation. I was a bit of a hard case, and I truly do thank all of the many caring Christians who took the time and patience to share their love for Christ with me and the Good News of salvation by grace alone.
For anyone who wishes they were a little more 'intellectual' or more educated, let me tell you that it isn't always a blessing. Like wealth, it isn't how much you have, it's what you do with it. For a long time I was just 'too smart' to believe in God. I was duped by our fine universities and professors into believing that God was dead, or a least irrelevant. That wouldn't have been such an easy task if there hadn't been a spiritual vacuum a home, so parents be warned: you need to clearly tell your kids what you believe and keep telling them! If you don't, they'll believe tv or their friends or their teachers.
I did have my moments of brokenness along the way -- times when I wanted to believe, needed to believe, really -- but then my low self-esteem and self-critical nature convinced me that I was not 'good enough' for God and that I would only let Him down just like I had let everyone else down in the past. No one had explained to me clearly enough that I wasn't 'good enough' for God, but that I NEVER would be! That's why only the cleansing blood of Jesus was enough to sanctify me and reconcile me to God. I couldn't 'merit' salvation by being 'good enough' and I couldn't 'earn' salvation by doing good things -- I could only accept the free gift of salvation through faith in Jesus, and begin to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in transforming me into the image of Christ.
Finally in Law School, while discussing the origin of law, I was forced to come to a conclusion about truth. It suddenly appeared as black and white as it truly is: either there is an ultimate Truth that comes from a Creator and exists for every human, or there is no truth, and all morality is merely 'relative' and can change over time and place. At that moment I recognized that there is a Right and Wrong, truths we hold to be self-evident, and that that 'Jiminy Cricket' of a conscience we all have is evidence of a loving Creator who has set rules for His creation.
That was all it took, really. Once I accepted that there was a God, there really was no question for me that this was the God of Abraham, the God that so many friends had introduced me to years before, the God who sent Jesus to be a ransom for our sin, and a savior to the world. All those seeds planted years and decades before by people long passed out of my life began to bear fruit.
I am so very grateful to all the people in my life who took me to vacation Bible school, who taught me, who came to pick me up faithfully every Sunday morning, who dragged me to youth group and who kept displaying the light of Christ in their lives while I stood at the door and refused to knock. I encourage every Christian not to give up on those 'hard cases' in your own life who you fear might never be saved. Keep sowing the seeds and being a light, and let God do the rest!
Keep a close watch on how you live and on your teaching. Stay true to what is right for the sake of your own salvation and the salvation of those who hear you.
~1 Timothy 4:16
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